Poetry bleeds from the lips of those whose words can make a difference
My words are not poetry,
They just fly around in a dark room until someone stumbles upon them
And mistakes them for poetry
I want to write about grief in a way that is beautiful yet painful
I want to make metaphors out of thin air, but I can’t breathe these days
I can’t romanticise grief and suffering
It hurts physically, emotionally, and mentally.
Grief is not beautiful, it is not a journey
It painful and never-ending
We only hope that it gets better someday
Until we find something that reminds us of them,
And we break all over again
These days, I don’t even have to look for grief
It is all around me
Every person I turn to is grieving for someone around them
Because help is difficult to find
Impossible if it is an emergency
Words are left unsaid, and breaths are left trapped in windpipes
They choke them and snatch the dreams of everyone
It leaves you with nothing but a broken jar of memories that you are desperately trying to cling on to
You cut yourself on your precious memories
You forget how to be without the one you lost
You try to hope the one you could lose holds on better
And you are caught in a tug of war with life
Hoping, pleading, crying
Just wishing it would let at least this one live
I can’t sit and talk about grief in pretty metaphors
I can’t stain the broken glass and make it look beautiful
The grief I see these days,
It is like an infected wound caused by a rusted serrated knife
It hurts and burns, and you watch the poison travel up veins
It leaves you with an ache in your bones as your throat closes up
You want to scream but your voice has given up
Your tears have run dry, and you still can’t process it
You sit on your bed saying “what?” till you can make the ringing in your head stop
But it doesn’t
It just never seems to stop
I see grief wreck us apart
Make us feel pain like we have never felt before
Leave us breathless and out of control
Helpless
Like those on beds with tubes attached to them
Hoping and praying they make it out alive
And I want to be angry
Angry at the doctors for not doing enough
Until I realise that they are doing all they can
So, I get angry at an incompetent government that can’t enforce protocols
That guzzles money without accountability
That is so caught up in its pettiness that it cannot focus on the matter at hand
A government so incompetent at its job that it tells its citizens to do the work it
But most of all,
I mourn,
I mourn for those who are gone
I mourn for those who could be gone
And I mourn for myself because I can picture myself
Just as helpless, just as out of breath, and just as pained
As those who are out there fighting while I,
I sit and write angry words out of my grief that I can’t channel properly.
Beautiful.
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Simply brilliant!
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Thank you so much!
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